Tarot Creation, Self-Expression, Bloodletting
I may just draw the Hanged Man over and over when I create my Tarot deck. 72 Hanged Man.
Already I'm starting to think visually. And I'm the kind of person who will say: I don't think visually. But already it's starting and in the middle of the night I had a thought and the thought had an image that I wanted to draw.
This is what my upcoming class is for. Bloodletting. Self expression. Creation.
And this is not so much a commercial but wanted to talk about my process and how making pictures is this other form of self expression that I've been alienated from for decades except for two versions of Tarot cards that I drew in 2015 which was a very bad year.
So I'm thinking there's a missing piece here. So I'm thinking that maybe I found something. And I got up just now to draw what had been in my head overnight. My head cut off floating in the water, just above the waves.
There is a poem I love that begins: I know there is a worm in the human heart. I like to quote it every so often.
That too is my Hanged Man. Sometimes our lives are one card and one card only for years. And other times we shift between two or three. Sometimes maybe the whole deck. And maybe other times our lives go so blank we are that No-Thingness card from the Osho Zen Tarot. Black canvas. Pitch.
What I know is this: Life is a constant process of falling apart and coming together (or the illusion of it )and there are waves and drawing along with writing can take you deeper into the waves which is ultimately healing. Why? Because it makes you feel. Which is different than not feeling. Maybe someday your head won't be bobbing on top of the water. At the very least, take a picture while it's there.
So basically the class is to crack open your heart but I didn't know that before.